“If I could turn back time”
How many times have you found yourself saying that?
But what if you could?
What would you do differently?
And would it be possible? Or are all our lives already mapped out for us, before we even enter the world with our first screaming breath, by some mysterious hand of fate?
How and why do we make the choices we do?
Personal, professional, social
Is it fate?
Influences?……parental, school, peers
How many of us find ourselves following the same or similar career paths as our parents or older siblings?
I have some friends who are both GP’s. They have 5 children…..3 are doctors and 2 are dentists
Both my parents were healthcare professionals , so is that why I chose to go into nursing?
Or was it because I wasn’t allowed to see the careers adviser at school as I’d put down that I wanted to go to Drama School? Not a worthy choice for a grammar School student!
And, funnily enough, my daughter also followed me into the NHS…despite refusing point-blank to speak to anyone when she was little, who dared to say ” and I expect you’ll be a nurse when you grow up like your mummy”!
Why did I choose to stay in Devon when my younger self found life going a bit pear-shaped?
What made me rent from the person who would become my OH?
Why put that post on that particular website when looking for my birth mother, when I had scoured so many others?
And then as we go through life and we make more of those life changing decisions…..marriage, mortgages, children
Sometimes, when I look back, I can’t actually remember how I ever came to making them….well apart from the children one
And what keeps us where we end up?
Even if it’s not right
But if I could turn back time?
Well there are things,people, moments that I would never have any differently
But yes….there are others
Things I have done
People I’ve lost touch with
Places I’ve never been to
Decisions I’ve made
Advice I’ve ignored
But would I really?
Or is it the fabric of me?
And if I can’t?
Then maybe it’s time for another leap of faith
And see what fate has in store……….